Full-Blown Agony: My Battle With the Mysterious Pain of Cluster Headache Syndrome

It began on a gloomy Monday in the morning in the autumn of 2016. I worked as a teacher, attempting to manage a new group of students, when a sudden sensation bloomed behind my one eye. It was followed by rapid shocks, reminiscent of lightning bolts. As the school day came and went, the discomfort subsided and then returned with increased force. Four times that day I handed over a colleague with worksheets and hurried to the staff bathroom to soak my face with cool water. I took ibuprofen, but the pain remained unrelenting.

The attacks appeared frequently that autumn, and again in the spring, soon forming an yearly pattern. September and October were the worst, then February and March. I could predict the routine: a warning sensation in the morning, early twinges on the train, full-on agony in the classroom by mid-morning. In late 2019, a GP eventually sent me to a specialist and I was diagnosed with cluster headache disorder.

Cluster headaches often start with severe pain behind a single eye that persists for three hours.

About one in 1,000 individuals suffer by the disorder, and males are more frequently affected. Cluster headaches typically start with abrupt, severe pain focused on a single eye that peaks within minutes and lasts for as long as three hours. Episodes come in clusters, daily or multiple times a day, and are associated with red or watery eyes, sagging eyelids or face sweating. I have an episodic type, which occurs in seasonal bouts; others have continuous cluster headaches, defined by the lack of long pain-free periods.

What unites patients is the severity. One research paper scored the pain at 9.7 out of 10, more severe than broken bones or pancreatitis. Another discovered a significant percentage of cluster headache patients experienced thoughts of self-harm amid attacks; the figure dropped to four percent when they were pain-free.

One patient, in her seventies, a chronic patient from Pembrokeshire, finds this understandable. Her episodes began when she was a toddler. “I would hurl myself on the floor and hit my head. That was put down to being a difficult child,” she says. Her condition worsened through her youth. Drinking in her teens, similar to several causes, made things worse. After having sherry at her graduation party, she remembers hardly being able to see on the transport home.

Her relatives often interpreted her attacks as drunken behavior. Understanding eventually came from her parent and then from her partner, her spouse. “I was very lucky to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs found clerical work after relocating, but often concealed her condition. She was fired from one job, in part due to absences during attacks. Her definitive diagnosis came in 2002 at a national hospital.

Nevertheless, the inability to plan daily activities around unpredictable pain took its toll. She especially hated being unable to plan social events, being seen as unreliable as a colleague, and even having to be cared for by her family during the paralysis caused by the worst episodes. “It robs you of the small freedoms we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She recalls obtaining tickets for a significant concert, only to have an attack inside a facility.


Headaches have been described throughout the ages. “The earliest description of headache comes by way of the Mesopotamians in antiquity,” write authors in a book on the subject. They linked the disease to an malevolent entity who attacked his victims' heads.

Historical medical texts suggest unusual remedies for what modern observers would describe as a headache disorder. In the middle ages, migraine was recognised as a distinct disorder, with treatments ranging from bloodletting to other, more folk remedies.

It was a Dutch doctor who provided the first comprehensive account of a cluster headache. In his writings, he describes a patient “suffering with a very severe headache occurring and disappearing each day at fixed hours”.

The disorder were only officially classified by global medical societies in 1988. From the 1960s to the late 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a issue with a key artery which supplies blood to the head. Prominent specialists in treating the disorder explain this.

In the late 1990s, researchers published the results of a study for which they had induced cluster headaches in patients and monitored the attacks in a imaging machine. The results, featured in a prominent journal, showed increased activity of the hypothalamus, which is responsible for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in pain, and a reduction when they felt better.

In spite of such advances, identification remains delayed. One man's attacks started in 1986 and felt like “a modelling balloon being blown up behind my left eye”. Doctors thought he had sinus problems; he underwent multiple surgeries before eventually being diagnosed in 2014, after a doctor researched his symptoms.

Specialists say delays in diagnosis and managing occur because patients are rarely seen mid-attack. “You're tired and depressed, but not in severe pain,” one says. He proceeds by ruling out other common headache disorders, such as tension-type headache, before diagnosing cluster headaches. A thorough history is crucial: on which part of the head do symptoms occur? For how long? What season? Are there triggers, such as certain foods? Specific characteristics such as redness, drooping eyelids and stuffy nose help verify cluster headaches. Once diagnosed, patients may be referred to specialist clinics. But many first arrive to A&E or are given inadequate treatments.

Dorothy Chapman, in her late seventies, has experienced the condition for the majority of her adult life, although she hasn't had an episode since recent years. When she was in her twenties, she had her molars extracted because dentists misunderstood her pain. She thinks the dental profession still need much more awareness. When a sufferer sought help from a charity, it was she who replied. The author recalls calling a support line during an attack in 2021; a calm advisor talked me through oxygen therapy and drugs until the attack passed.

National guidance on management advise that sufferers are offered high-flow oxygen therapy and/or a anti-migraine medication delivered by nasal spray. No oral painkillers or strong analgesics should be used. Prophylactic options include verapamil, which apparently soothes the attacks of well-known individuals.

But consultant specialists believe the official guidelines need updating to reflect a clearer treatment process and help general practitioners avoid misprescribing. For episodic patients, the treatment window is everything: “The length of the cycle determines the treatment.” Short bouts with occasional attacks are managed with acute therapy only. Longer or more intense periods require preventative medications such as certain drugs, sometimes combined with steroids. Many patients also receive a nerve block injection during a cycle – an injection into the side of the skull where the pain is that decreases nerve activity.

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